1 Year Wedding Anniversary
April 26, 2019
This Sunday, April 28th, marks our one year wedding anniversary and I wanted to reflect a little bit on what our first year has been like as a married couple.
First, let me back up to the few months leading up the wedding. These were, without a doubt, the most stressful, depressing and confusing months of my life. Sure, I was excited to be marrying Eddie, but I also had so much turmoil in my mind that the experience was painstakingly long and uncertain. (Of course, I never expressed this to anybody.) The time leading up to your wedding day was supposed to be stressful, yes, but also a thrilling rollercoaster ride. This expectation didn’t match my reality and that in and of itself made me unsure of what I was experiencing. Stress bled into our relationship, we fought more than we ever had. Not comforting with a quickly approaching wedding date.
As if a light switch had been flipped, April 28th, 2018 turned everything around. Our wedding day was so much better than I could have ever imagined. We laughed, cried, sang, dance, drank and shared our day with friends and family who traveled so far to celebrate with us. All of the stress that had built up for months just disappeared in an instant. We ended the night on a high and continued onto a phenomenal honeymoon. Traveling with Eddie is one of my favourite things to do so our whole road trip through France was spectacular.
Returning to the States and our normal life was no small feat. It took every bone in our body to stop daydreaming about our month in France and to focus on work. We shared a common wanderlust and vowed to return for more ASAP. This joint mission spread into all our life’s plans: our desire to hustle and save for our future, when we wanted to start having kids, where we wanted to live, etc. These dreams brought us closer together than ever.
During the entirety of our first year as a married couple we’ve been faced with many situations that could have made or broken us but ultimately proved our love for one another. Strangely (or not so), my depression was one of them. Eddie was (and still is) my biggest cheerleader. He has supported me through the hardest emotional breakdowns fueled by depression and every single day I’m reminded of why I married him. Before the winter holidays of 2018, I made a decision to quit my 9-to-5 in an effort to get happy again and focus my energy on something that aligned more with my ethics and passions in life. I’m still on this journey, and have been blessed with the space needed to focus on reducing my depression and getting back to a happier and healthier Saffy. This would absolutely not have been possible without Eddie’s unwavering support. Whilst he may not agree with my motives, he has provided 100% support for my decision to go vegan and change my lifestyle to meet these beliefs. Another display of unconditional love like I’ve never experienced. He too has been presented with challenges over the past year that I would like to believe I’ve helped him through. We’ve got some news to share in a couple of months that were not in line with our original timeline but that we’re tackling together whilst accepting the mini detour from our plans. After all, life isn’t a destination, it’s a journey, right?
With all of that said, this past year has unquestionably been the best year in our entire 5-year relationship – practically bliss. Sure we still have our tiffs, but they are few and far between now and more than ever we recognize how strong we are as a couple and that we are in this journey together – tackling all issues as a united front. I don’t know if this is a common feeling for newlyweds, but it sure feels wonderful. I’ve never experienced an unconditional love like this before and I constantly wake up each day feeling lucky to be alive and rolling over to a wonderful husband who loves me with every ounce in his body.
Here’s to many more blissful years, tutz.